the world is complicated
i hate this world, y every ppl must live with mask..
haiz.. today after BM period actually got lot of feelin about this post, but after a nap when i get back home, i have no feelin already...
it's just so, so pathetic that everyone now is no longer "pure" ... it's just so sad...
i already don't know how to say liao, n i jus hav to get used to this life...
y everyone in a big gang jus can't enjoy time together n jus b willingly to forgive?
im jus so sad to live in the world like this already... i love kids cuz of their "purity", they won't think much of hatred between ppl, but love, play together, tatz all.. how bout u?
I really hate u...
i hate myself as bein "no-colour", or in chemis term, "thermoplastics", which can easily being moulded...
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6S1 now got 2 obvious gang, im jus standin between them, do u think this kinda skul life is fun? hwei yean n klcc gang, they both hate each other, but seems so "ok" in front of ppl... i jus so hate ppl wif this kinda "fake-mask"...
wel, both r my gd frens, but it's jus hard standin between these 2 sides... m b hwei yean think tat im on klcc side, n may b klcc thinks tat im on hwei yean side, either one, it's totally understandable... but really, i like both of them, but... haih.... y human mus live their lives like this?
For moz ppl, it's wat u called Chameleon, i know, tat's y sometime i cud feel tat i hav no one that can really share my feelin wif, i hav no such fren... pathetic hah?
i admit im those Chameleon type, n so easily bein affected n so easy to change n adapt... tat's y i won't hav my own personality, my heart is stil pure though, but not physically i think...for me, im jus too... "kind" gua, always wanna change to adapt ppl around me to make them feel ok to be fren wif... anyway, tat's somethin i can't change...
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kla, it's jus a post to express myself, don't think im sad or wat.. jus really really wanna find a fren which we both can share feelin wif, n no barrier between us.. kinda hard huh for ppl like me?
im as if a love-hunger person, really, independent on my size la.. haha, m b u jus put jus a lil bit, jus a bit of concern bout me, i can love u til a long time, no matter gal or boy, i think it's because lack of love from family gua..
haih... so, m b it's God's gift for me so tat no one dare to really get close to me unless they hav the courage to try...haha.. u can ask yikcai, he's an innocent... wakaka..
ehh.... this post actually is jus a diary for myself la, jus dunno where to put so ma put on web lo, tat's the meanin of a blog gua, sorry if can't fit ur taste...
haiz.. today after BM period actually got lot of feelin about this post, but after a nap when i get back home, i have no feelin already...
it's just so, so pathetic that everyone now is no longer "pure" ... it's just so sad...
i already don't know how to say liao, n i jus hav to get used to this life...
y everyone in a big gang jus can't enjoy time together n jus b willingly to forgive?
im jus so sad to live in the world like this already... i love kids cuz of their "purity", they won't think much of hatred between ppl, but love, play together, tatz all.. how bout u?
I really hate u...
i hate myself as bein "no-colour", or in chemis term, "thermoplastics", which can easily being moulded...
***
6S1 now got 2 obvious gang, im jus standin between them, do u think this kinda skul life is fun? hwei yean n klcc gang, they both hate each other, but seems so "ok" in front of ppl... i jus so hate ppl wif this kinda "fake-mask"...
wel, both r my gd frens, but it's jus hard standin between these 2 sides... m b hwei yean think tat im on klcc side, n may b klcc thinks tat im on hwei yean side, either one, it's totally understandable... but really, i like both of them, but... haih.... y human mus live their lives like this?
For moz ppl, it's wat u called Chameleon, i know, tat's y sometime i cud feel tat i hav no one that can really share my feelin wif, i hav no such fren... pathetic hah?
i admit im those Chameleon type, n so easily bein affected n so easy to change n adapt... tat's y i won't hav my own personality, my heart is stil pure though, but not physically i think...for me, im jus too... "kind" gua, always wanna change to adapt ppl around me to make them feel ok to be fren wif... anyway, tat's somethin i can't change...
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kla, it's jus a post to express myself, don't think im sad or wat.. jus really really wanna find a fren which we both can share feelin wif, n no barrier between us.. kinda hard huh for ppl like me?
im as if a love-hunger person, really, independent on my size la.. haha, m b u jus put jus a lil bit, jus a bit of concern bout me, i can love u til a long time, no matter gal or boy, i think it's because lack of love from family gua..
haih... so, m b it's God's gift for me so tat no one dare to really get close to me unless they hav the courage to try...haha.. u can ask yikcai, he's an innocent... wakaka..
ehh.... this post actually is jus a diary for myself la, jus dunno where to put so ma put on web lo, tat's the meanin of a blog gua, sorry if can't fit ur taste...
tell them how u feel..If they knw how u feel, sure wont think that u r either side...Ok,, u said u lack of love from family..o, just hope that u r ok lar..actually, noone is perfect, everybody has their "own stories" behind their cheeful smiles or faces. Just that they choose to rect in a positive way. I know u r kinda a optimistic sometimes, but not every time..So, smles always..
Posted by
wishes |
8:02 PM
Observant of you to sense this 2 sides, I thought they did a pretty well job in hiding the war.
It happens every year, and it cannot change, both sides have their own reason to hate the other, and both people(klcc+hweiyan) are maths genius.(Mathematical people think in a different pattern)
Well, you're not the only one in between, don't worry, just stand for your own beliefs.
I take no sides, so sometimes I get whacked by 2 sides at once, but as long as we stand our own ground, there is nothing to feel sad about.
Keep it up, big man.
Posted by
Ardelus Nightmare-Bearer |
9:40 PM
hm... a bit late to post a comment? anyway... Sometimes ppl do have tons of feeling to express, though knowing that after u've express, there is nothing to do with the fact that there is still 2 gang... there is still the usual frens to share u're feelings with...
So, get back to ur non-so-expressing self and everything will be fine. I support you!! ^^
I had a lot of things to say on mask of people actually... wait till I publish a book on it 1st then you can be the 1st reader...keke
Posted by
Karmen |
1:30 AM
june, sometimes tellin the true feelin jus not the best way, it's as if one day bumped into u n say, "i like u"..
ardy, sure u got lot of comment n experience on tis, haha, anyway, im ok, jus feel tat tis kinda skul life jus pathetic yet hav to get used to..
kar, thx for ur support n hope i hav the chance to b the first reader wif ur autograph .. haha...
so, really thanks for all ur comments.. im stil happy n not the sad kind, jus sometimes got some instant-down-feelin tat cant resist.. haha.....
don't worry me ;-)
Posted by
Aaron |
2:48 PM