Airbus or Boeing ?
so touched n happy to have ur comments, Ardy... but i hav diff opinion on "loving" n "liking"
i stil think tat human need this type of "instinct", sometimes we can't own something doesn't mean that the "something" shouldn't exist, some ppl "love" to live, some live to "love".. well, im not tat professional at this too.. hehe.. can't comment much
anyway, it's jus totally torturing...
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k, back to my POST for today...
umm... jus abit sad at the beginning but kinda try to pretend not sad.. i mean .. haiz, skip the story, the end is, "being rejected sometimes no matter who that person is, can make you feel totally bad"...
numorous time being rejected n "put aeroplane", may be this is the nature of human, or, the world is like this, it made me feel tired with this world...
ingnorance, rejection n "bein put aeroplane" are words i use when the God wanna reject you or stop you from doing something, this is my opinion, at some point, if someone really serious with this issue, they will think, "damn, why take such a long time to reject me, don't use that excuse, ever, again please.." n the misunderstanding arises... Another type of person, "it's really ok, may b he or she really got something to do, even not, jus assume his or her excuse is a real reason for rejecting.. nvm..."
well, which person are you?
Me, knowing how to analyse the difference (hehe....) sure standing between these 2 roles, now that, makes life so painful...
In this case, well, have u ever played "Maze" in your lifetime, if you don't skip this paragraph pls...
I believe that there are lot of different ways to come out of the maze, or, to save someone... People love to get inside n get out of that maze fast, w/o much thinking, but well, if you truly enjoy n appreciate that maze, that maze can use up your time for hours...... umm, not really in reality but in this case for example, i like to analyse the whole maze and look at every corner n way that maze could lead to, well, that somehow, can trap me n make me really frustrated for long, but once i found the way out, i won't be scare again if i get into that maze again, cuz i'm already familiar with that pattern, but hey, if you are to solve trillions n billions of maze, how long should you live to solve all of them? That makes my life painful since i LOVE to think a lot with just a little thing...
ahh... m b tat example doesn't explain, anyway, it makes me feel better now...
I finally made up my mind not to join anyone to anywhere anymore, i mean friends.. cuz i really hate "aeroplane" between human bonds, or should say why starightforward thing can be so complicated sometimes? I just don't want and totally hate the interaction between human becomes soooo complicated... well, this is what i persist... even though it's really normal for someone bein put aeroplane for uncountable times, i just hate it when i feel the aeroplane anymore for the second time, so.. no more out...
actually i made a mistake .. hehe... i should have said, dun wan to be such stupid bein initiative to ask ppl out anymore...
may b lyk wat yikcai said last year, i m really bad at organizing thing, or holding some events or wat, so.. yea , now that i agree...
7 sms, merely 7 sms, but that really cost me lot of money n time n feel.... 7 sms then ends up even bad than no sms, you think worth it? na.... totally... no .. plus, it's 012 to 016, worse.......
may be i was right, im those guy that should be isolated n cannot have any friends, tat can make me and ppl in the whole world feel better... it's just that i thought i should change my opinion last year so i decided to change, but now... i should go back to the starting-point n should never come back...
Years before, i insist that even the world has no one left, i still can live, cuz i don't need friends, that's me, may b "Aaron" , the double-A makes me feel so special n self-centered plus obnoxious .... dunno... that feelin comes back now...
umm.. sorry ah (to myself) ... dunno since when that i started to contradict my own "theme" in this blog --- "What's a blog? Place to release? Think again." .. hehe... gonna change soon...
Anyway, if you know me better, i somehow is so special, i can be as lame as useless as a drunken man but sometimes can be so energetic .. ahh... jus "odd" instead of special huh?
so... it makes me feel better, pen-off.
i stil think tat human need this type of "instinct", sometimes we can't own something doesn't mean that the "something" shouldn't exist, some ppl "love" to live, some live to "love".. well, im not tat professional at this too.. hehe.. can't comment much
anyway, it's jus totally torturing...
---------------------------------------------------------
k, back to my POST for today...
umm... jus abit sad at the beginning but kinda try to pretend not sad.. i mean .. haiz, skip the story, the end is, "being rejected sometimes no matter who that person is, can make you feel totally bad"...
numorous time being rejected n "put aeroplane", may be this is the nature of human, or, the world is like this, it made me feel tired with this world...
ingnorance, rejection n "bein put aeroplane" are words i use when the God wanna reject you or stop you from doing something, this is my opinion, at some point, if someone really serious with this issue, they will think, "damn, why take such a long time to reject me, don't use that excuse, ever, again please.." n the misunderstanding arises... Another type of person, "it's really ok, may b he or she really got something to do, even not, jus assume his or her excuse is a real reason for rejecting.. nvm..."
well, which person are you?
Me, knowing how to analyse the difference (hehe....) sure standing between these 2 roles, now that, makes life so painful...
In this case, well, have u ever played "Maze" in your lifetime, if you don't skip this paragraph pls...
I believe that there are lot of different ways to come out of the maze, or, to save someone... People love to get inside n get out of that maze fast, w/o much thinking, but well, if you truly enjoy n appreciate that maze, that maze can use up your time for hours...... umm, not really in reality but in this case for example, i like to analyse the whole maze and look at every corner n way that maze could lead to, well, that somehow, can trap me n make me really frustrated for long, but once i found the way out, i won't be scare again if i get into that maze again, cuz i'm already familiar with that pattern, but hey, if you are to solve trillions n billions of maze, how long should you live to solve all of them? That makes my life painful since i LOVE to think a lot with just a little thing...
ahh... m b tat example doesn't explain, anyway, it makes me feel better now...
I finally made up my mind not to join anyone to anywhere anymore, i mean friends.. cuz i really hate "aeroplane" between human bonds, or should say why starightforward thing can be so complicated sometimes? I just don't want and totally hate the interaction between human becomes soooo complicated... well, this is what i persist... even though it's really normal for someone bein put aeroplane for uncountable times, i just hate it when i feel the aeroplane anymore for the second time, so.. no more out...
actually i made a mistake .. hehe... i should have said, dun wan to be such stupid bein initiative to ask ppl out anymore...
may b lyk wat yikcai said last year, i m really bad at organizing thing, or holding some events or wat, so.. yea , now that i agree...
7 sms, merely 7 sms, but that really cost me lot of money n time n feel.... 7 sms then ends up even bad than no sms, you think worth it? na.... totally... no .. plus, it's 012 to 016, worse.......
may be i was right, im those guy that should be isolated n cannot have any friends, tat can make me and ppl in the whole world feel better... it's just that i thought i should change my opinion last year so i decided to change, but now... i should go back to the starting-point n should never come back...
Years before, i insist that even the world has no one left, i still can live, cuz i don't need friends, that's me, may b "Aaron" , the double-A makes me feel so special n self-centered plus obnoxious .... dunno... that feelin comes back now...
umm.. sorry ah (to myself) ... dunno since when that i started to contradict my own "theme" in this blog --- "What's a blog? Place to release? Think again." .. hehe... gonna change soon...
Anyway, if you know me better, i somehow is so special, i can be as lame as useless as a drunken man but sometimes can be so energetic .. ahh... jus "odd" instead of special huh?
so... it makes me feel better, pen-off.
erm..seems lke u r having a hard time..feel isolated and disappointed..so, hope u will feel better right now..take care
Posted by
wishes |
10:23 PM
Something is troubling you my friend.
Who in jack-hell planted the thought that you don't need/have friends in your mind? And who the @#$% told you you can't organize things?
I tell you that guy must be dragged out and smacked. You need a little confidence that all. As the president of Com society, although there are times I dislike your soft methods (aww you know im the hotheaded guy), at least you have the ability to pacify, to cool things down, a calmness to stop every storm.
Organizing an outing? You cannot control others, so 'aeroplane guys' are always everywhere, buzzing around like flies so that you wanna smack them into fly jam and spread it on bread.
You can feel down, and feel sad, but there is no use losing confidence in yourself. get a beer, stimulate yourself!
Even though others may call you a weak leader, know that I am here by you, and I swear my loyalty, Mr. President. (like some oath from the west wing...)
Posted by
Ardelus Nightmare-Bearer |
12:01 AM
thx june..
n thx ardy..
thx for your loyalty.. hehe... actually i jus mean organizing an outing la...
btw, yea, i'm stil soft, i know tat bein a good leader sometime jus have to be strong n even sometime wil make few ppl not so suang, u have to do the best choice that u think, but for me, im jus really too soft la, i can't do it... sometimes wanna punnish ppl, but worry ppl bu suang... haiz.. wat can do?
anyway, i know tat if i wanna b a gd leader one day, i hav to learn to sacrifice n to b cruel.. or may b ony i have tis prob?
......
Posted by
Aaron |
11:23 PM
Being a leader doesn't mean being cruel. Think of it this way, its respect.
Others must respect you as the appointed leader, if not they are radicals, and those who respect you trust in you to make good decisions.
Sometimes you make decisions that are harsh, but those who respect you will obey, and believe me, they won't hate you. The radicals will make a lot of noise, but so long as they do not interfere, ignore them.
Look at Stalin, Hitler, Churchill, Roosevelt, they sent thousands to die in WW2, but nowadays people don't call them cruel leaders(except Hitler), they are respected leaders.
No such thing as being soft, its about making the right decision to lead your team.
Like Stalin "Not one step backwards" who ordered any infantry that turned back to be shot, leadership is one thing, cruelty is another.
Posted by
Ardelus Nightmare-Bearer |
11:44 PM