The holiday is totally sucks... I hate this holiday... THEY haven't been really talked for days... I'm so depressed, mainly because of that, another reason is that I didn't really watch TV  lately...

For about 18 hrs that I left my stomach empty since las night's dinner at 1 U. Well... It's so normal to me, n i dun even feel hungry... k, tat's my ability ;-)

Jus saw Alicia's Journal, she was some kinda really depressed too, a side that I've never ever seen before, haiz.. is tat really wat an artist has to pay for? 

My "Inbox" got a lot of sms lately from **,  when i was stressed, depressed n lonely.. ahh.. so touched.. anyway, i guess ** did the same to other ppl also, which makes me speical no more gua... dunno... thought to expand our relationship before, but now hardly hav a verbal conversation, even ** stands in front of me, i dunno wat to say... ahh... I know what you're thinking .. but hell, no... I'm not in love... I wasn't n am not... but surely will gua, hope tat won't b too long...

been stayin in my room for almost the whole day, THEY are still like that, o... the atmosphere in my hse is so... tense... haiz.... HE's fault...

HE drop my lovely notebook to floor tat day.. i still remember, it was gd tat i din see how HE did it, cuz that really hurts... (not paper notebook k..) It's fortunate for my notebook din badly hurt.. but I am really hurt.... Why wou;d you do this... It's innocent... Every injuries that HE caused on my notebook I won't FORGET...

It's really a disastorous holiday... I was alomost that close to quit my society now really ... I hav no motive anymore, no strength, nor laughter... it's really hard for me...

btw, thanks *baby*, for the BACK TO THE FUTURE tat was used to b totoro cartoon.. really thx...

n LOST, thx... all the 15 episodes tat I've watched is so great... can't wait to watch what's next...

ahh... I need air......