I don't know what's right or wrong,
loving you is hard, 
may be the affection is so dull, 
or perhaps,
an act of stupid.

I can't stop the image of you swaying, swinging in my mind,
the feeling is so special,
I can live without you,
I can go to a new place,
without you,
perhaps,
I can live stronger or happier
staring at your name for long and I never dare
to just say "hi"

For me, you are so special,
i know it's a surprise for you,
and i know that you are belong to someone else,
i'm weak to fight for you
living life day to day,
i know you are sad,
though you smiley face.

it's really hard when you want something that already belong to someone,
or i should say
thing that so many people desire for
in front of you,
i'm so small,
a coward
that don't dare to tell how i feel about you

having you sitting beside me,
we laugh together,
chat together,
listening to you and watching you is truly my time of happiness
i never feel bored beside you, 
it's you that changed me
and only you that can cause such a big conflict in my heart

that day watching you suffering on the floor made everything stopped in front of me
for the first time that i hear you scream
i could feel your pain
but i don't know what i could do
to help you
to get you out of that pain
i swear that i don't know you well
but i truly do care about you
one day perhaps,
you'll live your day as everyone else
no more evil in your eyes nor pain
but happiness and healthy

so many people around me could feel my affection for you
they encouraged
pray for us,
but i never dare to step forward
cause i know
you will never accept me
no matter how many songs that fill my mind
none of them can replace you in my heart
every single thing that you do for me
i will never forget

is that called love?
it's a painkiller.
the barrier between us
blocked us moving further
how i wish i could turn the time backward
and tell you that i love you
just how i feel about you
perhaps after that i'll never get to see you again
but at least
i tried.

i'm living a dull life,
a life that's colourless
because of you
made my life monochromic
a post can't post all my feeling about you
but believe me
sometimes
a fullstop " . " is what i wish to end my life

getting more and more occasional that i get to see you
sometimes jus click on your name 
and saw your happy face
no matter who's around you
it's already enough for me

i jus hope that you will keep your smile and never cry again

your happy day is coming
and i wish you happy birthday