Human has a very odd chracteristic. When you owned something, u treasure it for some moment n u'll start to treat it as some normal thing later, n nothing at all at last unless it's really something special to you. On the other hand, when we don't have something, we'll do whatever good or bad just to own that something that you want... it's special n odd u know... depends where you view tis point.
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Sometimes when you are boring of something or some situation, u'd expect something special, something really special to happen so that u won't feel the boredom ... but actually, after the changes taken place for some time, u'll feel that the previous situation is better, or the changes shouldn't take place. That's why adult hate new changes while young ppl tend to love challengin n new changes.. becoz adults hav gone thru those changes n hav been so tired, boring with the changes all the time while young ppl love to change whenever they like, it's something correlate with maturity. In this case, i'm stil at the young ppl state... n halfly adult... emm... or shud say the "transition" takin place in myself. When come to changes, i like some changes that no one can accept, or shud say a very odd change. I like extreme changes, or changes that are contradict to what one can accept. May be it's the way to change n hide something bad behind and let ppl notice it. ??? may be, may be...
May be too much of the changes had brought a huge change in myself now. I'm no longer tat passionate in doing things, becoz i'm tired. I'm no longer that helpful, becoz i know sometimes ppl come to you jus becoz they wanna "use" you. I'm no longer tat optimistic from the inside, coz too much things dramatic changes that i can't accept n choose to escape. I'm no longer caring, cuz i need it myself. My emotion no longer stable and can change so dramatically becoz of strong dislike. I'm no longer tat hardworking, as i've learned not every hardwork could bring gd outcome. I'm no longer strong cuz im gettin weaker inside.
Sometimes believing too much in urself could make you force urself. It's true... cuz i said it de ma... hehe... when u tell yourself you could make it, u r believein ur own capability to make it, but when u failed to make it, u'll force urself to achieve the target. It's pathetic cuz forcing too much wil result in a massive reaction force that m b u can't withstand.... n breakdown. That's the philosophy of physics, mechanics. But life without target, forcing urself could result in laziness n u won't or can't make the best out of urself. That's y a suitable force is somtimes needed, to make a reaction force, to encourage urself, to stimuli urself.
I hate those ppl that wil take ur request, promise or statement for granted. It's very bad u know... You promised to help out n finally u cud end up soemthin like "huh? got meh? Oooo.. aiya, busy ma... okla okla... i'll do it later" ... emm.. im such person sometimes... but i stil hate these kinda ppl.. You give hope to ppl n take it away in a very rude, unfriendly way... It really hurts. "putting aeroplane" is one of the example, even how great the excuse is, u jus can't accept it.. it's even worse when the excuse is lame.. "wanna sleep la...", "no reason la, jus dun feel like goin", "no interest to go"... ahh... these r jus some of the lame excuse tat wud make u wanna punch him in his face n give out some rude words...
Another thing tat suddenly pop out in my mind is Waiting... When u make a request, or offer some promise, they dun wan to give u hope, so they'll jus tell u to wait wif excuses like: "not sure yet", "dunno o.. m b cannot gua", "c first la..." .... ok, it's lame too... especially those excuses that wil tend to one side n the result at last wil b on the another side... eg. "umm, may b can help la, c first la.. not sure yet" -----> (finally) "o.. umm... soli ah.. can't help u" ... it's simply =.=!!!
kla, i know im this kinda person too... most ppl too, but i jus can't help myself hating.. even it's like a mirror to yourself, u stil won't change too much to avoid bein such person...
jus a lil thoughts after 8-hrs sleep...
